who can even imagine

I am at a loss for words as I think about the massacre in Newtown, Connecticut. The parents and other family members of the children and the teachers, the other students who may have to return the school at some point, the other teachers and employees of the school, the community in general... my heart, love and prayers goes out to them all. The message from church this morning was about love and this was discussed and I feel the same as the messenger, I pray Jesus sends his love in a very tangible way to all these people.

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I hope everyone is holding their children a little tighter tonight and giving thanks for having them to hold!! <3

A LITTLE BIT STRONGER

By: Sara Evans

Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain.
But I brushed my teeth anyway, got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.

Riding in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, Stupid song made me think of you,
I listened to it for minute, but then I changed it.
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, 
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

Doesn't happen over night, but you turn around and a months gone by, 
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, 
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, 
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

I'm just a little bit stronger.
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

About Me

I should let you know a little bit about myself. Well my perception of ME at this time :)

THIS VIDEO DESCRIBES ME WELL

I am a full time single mother. It is like being in a funny farm some days and feel that an asylum would be a nice holiday spot. I would not trade my kids for the world!! You know the old saying, ' Well you grow up I hope you have a child just like you!'? Well my mother has such powerful words that not only did this come true but it was multiplied by 4. Thanks a lot mom!! (love ya <3) I have 2 of my children home full time, 1 part time and child living in another province with her father. I love them all with every inch of my heart and soul.

Being a mother is very important to me. I want grow up with them. My children teach me in every moment of every day as long as I am open to it. I am far from a perfect mother but I do believe that I have become a good one. 

I enjoy crafts, especially knitting and crocheting. I was taught by my hero, my Nana, to crochet and knit before I was 10 years old. It has grown from a fun past time into an obsession many times over the years.

Sharon Margaret Ferguson

Jan 15, 1944 - Feb 2, 2008

I love music. Always have some kind of tunes going on no matter what I am doing. My 3 year old can go to sleep to music blaring and is completely restless with silence. What can I say, she is my mini mini-me.  I love to sing and dance, as long as no one is watching. My 3 year old and my 14 year old both love dancing and singing with an audience where as my 9 year old feels the way I do. I want to teach my children to Sing like no one is listening, Dance like no one is watching, and to Love like they've never been hurt!!

I am trying to deepen and develop a close and loving relationship with my Higher Power. Jesus is the reason for the coming season. <3 

I do not yet understand all the things God has done and is doing in my life but I do know that it is all going to work out just the way He has planned for me. I am calmed within with this knowledge. I am learning on a daily basis to surrender anything and everything to Him and learning to ask for acceptance and knowledge of His will for me. Not easy but I am working on it. I am so grateful to have this opportunity to have a Father, a loving and caring Father. I am truly blessed!

I am a caring and compassionate individual. I am an extremest in many ways. I am very intense and put my everything into what I do. I just have to learn to finish what I am doing before jumping into yet another 'thing'. Can we say slightly ADHD? LOL It's all good, I thrive in chaos :).

I live with Bipolar 2. It is not who I am but is a part of all the millions of pieces that do make me ME.  I have learned over many years to live with this disease one day at a time, sometimes an hour or a breath at a time. Enough about that for now.     

<3 I have had many a storms in my life but there has always been a rainbow on the other side, all I had to do was open my eyes to see it. Many years I had my eyes so tightly shut that I was not able to appreciate the rainbows that have appeared for me. I now try to live with my eyes wide open. Good, bad or ugly there is a better and bright side to it all! <3

Days begining

I have decided to start a blog to help myself get away from useless Social sites, ie Facebook. Having an addictive personality to just about anything I am wasting away WAYYY too much time with games and reading random peoples status's. I can do so much more with my time and my time is precious. It's about time that I realized it!!